The Meaning of Being Fearless

I received my first hug from one of the patrons in the JHZ today, so it feels like a fitting place to begin my final post of the semester. Between trying to learn everyone’s names and getting absolutely schooled in Uno by a group of vivacious girls (and lovely YA staff), the weeks have passed by without much pause.

I want to take a moment to truly celebrate the incredible people that work at Skokie Public Library. Being great at what you do and loving what you do are two entirely different things. Everyone that I have had the pleasure of encountering/working beside unequivocally fall into both categories.

Being a YA librarian is no easy feat. Day in and day out I see YA staff striving to spark the kinds of conversations and thoughtful dialog each young adult they interact with will carry weightlessly, but consciously, with them. I see them asking, seeking, and researching ways to help the patrons that are a little harder to reach. I see librarians being fearless, and I think that is a grand takeaway for me. As Katy mentioned in her notes from ILA, you have to treat each patron as an individual, because they are. No two are the same.

My time at SPL so far has been dedicated to learning and finding my bearings within the library, specifically in the junior high and teen spaces. During my second semester, I hope to take a more actionable approach. Helping to facilitate Under the Covers with Laurel and sitting in on Write Stuff, a program run by Mandy, have been great. I hope to take what I have learned from both programs and perhaps create a sister program that merges the two. I also hope to take cues from Jenny’s special knack of coming up with spontaneous activities and pop-up programming for the junior high and teen spaces. For the many moments I have sat observantly by while YA staff have implemented and wholly embraced behavioral interventions and I-ESCAPE, I hope to be a part of that, too.

Half way into this internship and I can say undoubtedly that I am truly getting invaluable experience. I can confidently say that yes, I still want to be a YA librarian. And like the people here, I hope to not only love what I do, but to one day be great at it, too.


EDI, White Privilege, and Librarianship

This is a topic that has been on my mind almost constantly since I began work on my MLIS, and more prominently lately.

Last week I read White Fragility by Robin Diangelo. It’s a fantastically well-written book and something I’d consider required reading for all white people. Yesterday I attended the EDI training with Corie Wallace (where I once again realized just how many gaps I have in my knowledge). Today I read “White Privilege: Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack” by Peggy McInstosh after Lynnanne mentioned it during a discussion we had this morning.

I genuinely believe that EDI and confronting my own (and others’) white privilege is the single most important part of librarianship. Librarianship is vastly populated by white women. To say that I feel a natural comfort level in an around library spaces and communities is an understatement. While much of this is due to a shared interest, there is a large (often unacknowledged) part of this that is due to the fact that, generally, the entire crowd looks like me.

One of my best friends is my same age as me, has worked in libraries for 4+ years more than me, is in library school, and has many of the same interests as me. She actively reads and researches library culture and news as I do. She is hard-working, intelligent, and actively and passionately involved in what she does. However, her experience in working in libraries differs from mine constantly because she is black. Her authority and knowledge is questioned in ways mine never is (even though for 1.5 years she was my boss) by coworkers, employees, patrons, and our bosses. When she and I attend library conferences she is frequently one of only a few POC in the room. When the library started facing considerable scrutiny about racial equity she was continuously approached by senior staff members and asked about when she was planning on starting library school (something she was seldom, if ever, asked about in the preceding 5 years of her employment).

In my position at Evanston Public Library I work significantly with children. I lead weekly storytimes and provide additional programming for kids. In September, I hosted an enthusiastic, adorable, and very diverse group of 2nd graders from the local elementary school. For the last couple of months I’ve had kids continuously see me and yell “You read us Library Lion!!” or check out one of the books I “book talked” to the group. It’s been very heartwarming and incredibly professionally and emotionally fulfilling. (Great book, by the way).

At the beginning of this month, I had a distraught parent (a regular and one of the chaperones for the aforementioned library visit) come to me with a book list and a request for any materials she could use to talk about race with her child. As I was helping her, she let me know that the principal had sent home a note to every parent after a string of racially charged incidents had occurred at the school. It immediately hit me that some of the adorable, funny second graders I had hosted two months prior may have been subjected to horrifying language unacceptable in any space. They may have been made to feel unwelcome and unsafe in spaces that should assure both welcome and safety.

I was horrified. I was angry. But most importantly, I was energized. I spent the next two hours stripping down my current book displays and putting up new ones with a focus on talking about race. I asked the parent to give my email address to the principal and had her forward the reading lists to me. I put together a list of books my library did not currently own that addressed this subject and suggested them to my boss for purchase.

As library workers, what can we do to combat racism and increase equity? So much. We can consistently work to make our collections as diverse as possible – reflecting the diverse populations we serve. We can proud accessible and diverse programming. We can choose our storytime books with intent: showcasing diverse cultures, religions, skin colors, abilities, and neurodiversity. We can work to ensure our workplaces are welcoming and safe for diverse individuals as both patrons and employees. We can hold others in our personal lives or our professional spaces accountable when they display ignorance or intolerance. We can question and assess our own actions in every patron interaction. Perhaps most importantly, we can work everyday to further understand our own privileges and internalized biases.

Opportunities like yesterday’s EDI training are pivotal to offer again and again and again. Equity cannot be achieved in a 3 hour training session, but it can be combated by continuous work to ask ourselves and our communities difficult questions that challenge our beliefs and open our minds.


ILA 2018

Last week I got the fantastic experience of attending ILA as an intern. I absolutely love library conferences and have attended Reaching Forward and ALA in the past couple of years – every time with my best friend who is also pursuing her MLIS.

Being without my conference buddy was something I was anxious about, but it ended up being a really valuable experience. Logically, when you go to a conference with someone, you’re going to spend time talking to them and not networking. Additionally, the smaller atmosphere of ILA (versus ALA) and the social events made it much easier to feel comfortable talking to people.

An added (and surprising) benefit of being at ILA was getting the chance to network with coworkers from Northbrook Public Library. I have been shelving there for almost a year, but don’t have a lot of opportunities in which I get to talk to the desk staff there. Getting the chance to talk more in depth about librarianship with these people I already know was very valuable.

Because I was an intern through ILA I worked the registration desk on Thursday morning. Getting to work with ILA staff gave me the opportunity to meet some of ILA’s organizers as well as several presenters.

I also have never been to campus for Dominican (I have done all of my coursework online), so this internship, the mixer event on Tuesday, their booth in the exhibition hall, and meeting Diane Foote (who is now the ILA Exective Director and previously worked for Dominican) actually provided me with more of an opportunity to feel connected to Dominican than I have been able to experience prior to this fall.

A couple of great organizations I’m looking forward to exploring further as I continue my career are iREADARRT, and the various ILA forums. I’m also looking forward to assisting at ILA next year, as they invited us to come back as Intern Leaders.

I’ve attached my session notes as well, in case anyone is interested. This kind of professional development opportunity is such an invigorating experience and gave me tons of ideas to use at all of the library locations I work for! For my fellow interns, I found the session about landing the job you want to be a pretty helpful refresher.

My ILA session notes!


Reflection on the First Month

The first month of the internship has really flown by!  I have had a chance to meet with several departments and I feel like I have gained a much better understanding of the operations of the library as a whole–how the different departments interact with and impact each other to make library services more effective for the community.  It has been great to run into the other interns as well–to check in and hear how our experiences are similar and different.

So far this experience has provided me the opportunity to discover (or rediscover) some of the things that I am passionate about and ways that I can make a difference for people.  In the course of one of my projects, I revisited best practices on using media with young children.  This area really fascinates me because media in recent years has had such a huge impact on not only being a kid, but raising kids as well.  Providing thoughtful guidelines and educating caregivers about appropriate and effective media use is so important and a key element of promoting early literacy.

I also feel like I am starting to see how many of the things I learned about in various classes can be applied in a real library setting.  For example, after reading blogs and articles about libraries that have retooled picture book organization to make the collection easier to browse and more user friendly, I now have a chance to join in the conversation about how to undertake a big project like that.  Where would you start? What challenges and concerns need to be addressed, and how do you make changes that will be beneficial to the community without having a huge impact on the level of service that’s provided.  I feel like this has already been a great opportunity to participate in real library work–not just busy work, and it’s exciting to be able to apply what I’ve learned about in a real-world setting.


Let’s Talk About Rejection

I’ve already obtained so much experience in the short time that I have been here. My first real project was to call home childcare centers and preschools which was a very ‘hold on slow down’ moment for me. I was extremely nervous because I do not like talking to people on the phone; especially strangers that had no idea that I was calling or why. Internally I know it is sense of not wanting to bother people and having them reject me in turn because they in fact did not want to be bothered.

During the calls I got a lot voicemails, I got some people who did not want to talk to me, but I also had some great conversations. After having a great conversation with someone who was happy to talk to me made it much easier for me to pick up the phone and make another phone call. However, ever time I got a voicemail or someone who wasn’t interested in what I had said, it took a lot of courage to pick up the phone again. Overall I gained a lot of information from the providers that did want to talk to me and it was exciting to hear people’s reactions to the sources the library offers them, or how most of them had forgotten what a valuable resource the library is.

Being able to work up the courage to call someone is something I know I will have to get used to in Community Engagement and really just anywhere in the world I plan on working. It’s a natural part of job or a personal environment. Maybe instead of taking it as rejection I need to mirror it into something else.  As much as I would much rather being hiding in the stacks doing theme bags or making my flannel boards for storytimes, I know that being thrown into a situation will tech more about myself. The experiences of the phone calls and being rejected were uprooting me from what I am use to. In the Community Engagement department I will obviously have work closer with the community and communicate with people who I don’t know, on subjects that I may not be so knowledgeable about. This just means I have to work on what makes me a better more rounded person, instead of hiding myself where I feel comfortable and stable. This has been a learning curve but I am finding comfort in my role and within the library. I’m excited to keep learning new skills and having new experiences to share.


Leaving the Comfort Zone

Piggybacking off of Katy’s recent post, I’d like to delve into my own observations about my strengths and weaknesses.

I am such an introvert, that it’s a bit debilitating at times. Which makes the fact that I’m trying to crawl out of what my sister refers to as my “writerly hermit ways,” to be public facing at a library, somewhat peculiar. Whenever I think about getting out of my comfort zone, this image comes to mind:


Attempting to engage teenagers in conversation, especially when they don’t know you, is like walking out of your comfort zone. I have spent the last month hanging out primarily in the Junior High Zone and had a nice conversation with Laurel about my habits when I’m there. Something that is a strength of mine is my ability to reach out to teens who are more introverted like myself. Generally, they’ll be the ones sitting alone at a table or closer to the YA librarians. I’m happy to be at a point where I know many of the teen’s names and they feel comfortable enough to chat with me about their aspirations and what they’re working on in class or at home.

The area in which I lack is reaching out to the teens in larger groups, who are more vocal and engrossed in their own bubble. I found myself wondering what the best way was for me to get to know them. After touching base with Laurel, we thought it would be good for me come up with a few questions that I can ask the group to break the ice, just so we can get to know each other. I am learning that being genuinely curious and asking questions is something teens respond to really well.

Teens have called us nosy more than a couple of times. It’s easy to misinterpret good intentions at that age. But I can see that all the librarians genuinely care about their patrons and in my opinion, that is a young adult librarian’s biggest strength.


Gallup StrengthsFinder, or “I feel so called-out right now.”

Today I had the opportunity to take the Gallup StrengthsFinder assessment. I am a fairly introspective person, so I consider myself to be well aware of the strengths (and weaknesses) of my personality. I was looking forward to taking this assessment, as I love finding new ways of looking toward becoming an improved version of myself.

Even just answering the questions (before receiving the results) was really illuminating: analyzing which questions were harder versus easier for me to answer and having to answer questions in ways that don’t reflect positively on who I am as a person.

My breakdown of my top 5 is below:


While none of these things were completely shocking, it was really interesting to see that I do have a fairly good understanding of my leadership strengths and subsequent weaknesses (“They are often impatient” couldn’t be closer to the truth).

A couple of fun/interesting things that stuck out to me where the fact that my “Futuristic” analysis included a direction to work with those who have the “Activator” trait. This idea feeds directly into the fact that I tend to enjoy working independently.

It was hard to see “Significance” in my top 5 although I’m well aware of the fact that this is incredibly accurate. To me, this is one of the worst parts of my personality – I dominate conversation or discussions and really enjoy receiving positive feedback and acknowledgement to a point that is almost embarrassing, probably because I tend to outwardly showcase my positive traits but spend a lot of time internally focused on my more negative one.

What I am most excited about is the Application section in the Action-Planning Guide. Being able to have solid suggestions for using my personality to lead to greater future successes is so appealing and I can’t wait to get started.

Even this whole post cements that feedback I got in my assessment that I ” rarely avoid telling people about [myself], [my] experiences, or even [my] shortcomings. [I] reflect on what [I] should do better, more completely, or more perfectly. [I am] comfortable admitting all sorts of things about [myself].”